[Neha]

Leta I put your advice of creating a mantra to soothe the fear to use on Tuesday.

I was getting my first follow up mammogram after my cancer diagnosis and treatment last year. While I started the day with calm while they started an IV access, gave contrast, did the bilateral mammogram it dissolved into fear as the radiologist had them repeat it twice on the opposite side that was normal before and then get an ultrasound. I was there for 4 hours … most of it just waiting … with my thoughts.

The mantra that came to me was “I am made of Tao, I am filled with Tao, I am swimming in Tao, and I will return to the Tao.” It allowed me to surrender (even to death) and to feel peace with whatever outcome.

I know it’s a different fear than the one that came up during Monday’s meditation but the practice still helped.

Everything came back negative.